My Soul To Loose (Soul Screamers #0.5) by Rachel Vincent
Publisher:  Harlequin Teen
Published:   July 1st 2009
Ebook, 87 pages 
Challenge:  100 Books in 2011, YA Series

It was supposed to be a fun day, shopping at the mall with her best friend. Then the panic attack started and Kaylee Cavanaugh finds herself screaming, unable to stop. Her secret fears are exposed and it’s the worst day of her life.

Until she wakes up in the psychiatric unit.

She tries to convince everyone she’s fine–despite the shadows she sees forming around another patient and the urge to scream which comes burbling up again and again. Everyone thinks she’s crazy. Everyone except Lydia, that is. Another patient with some special abilities….

Rachel Vincent’s My Soul To Loose is a brief glance into Kaylee’s life before she discovers she is a bean sidhe.  During a trip to the mall with her best friend, Emma, she finds herself having what she calls a “panic attack”.  She has always had these but has never had a full explanation of their cause.  The moment she sees a boy in a wheelchair she feels one of her “panic attacks” coming on.  The difference between this panic attack is that this she not only screams uncontrollably but it also lands her in the Mental Ward.  After screaming her lungs out to the point of exhaustion she wakes up strapped to a bed, unable to move, in a small white room.  During her forced “sentence” in the Mental Ward she meets a very interesting fellow patient, who herself has a special ability (but no spoilers!). 

Rachel Vincent’s prequel is a wonderful glance and explanation into Kaylee’s personal experience with her pre-bean sidhe knowledge.  In the following novels, thoughts of her time in th Mental Ward are brought to the surface more than once.  She constantly struggles with the affect of her bean sidhe gift and how for the longest time she thought she might have actually been crazy.  This in turn has affected her, in more ways than one.  My Sou to Loose also helps answer many questions that come up in the following novels (again no spoilers!). It also shows how strong Kaylee is – not many girls go to the Mental Ward, then learn that they help souls by screaming their lungs out, live for hundreds of years, all in a few months time and then have the mental capability and maturity to accept it and embrace it. 

As always, Rachel Vincent’s ability to write in perfect detail astounds me.  In My Soul To Loose Kaylee visits the Netherworld for the first time, even though she has no idea what it is, let alone has a name for it.  Rachel Vincent’s descriptions of this world sends chills up your spine.  Unlike in the following novels, she is very careful to not give away too much of this world – she gives you just enough taste of the gruesomeness and terrifying creatures that inhabit it.

For those that have not had the opportunity to read or start the Soul Screamers series I would first say “WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?!” and then I would recommend that you read at least the first book before reading this prequel.  My Soul to Loose is a perfect addition to this series. 

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